A sincere thank you for your replies of support and love.
You guys broke me wide open. I’m almost in a fetal position weeping for the love and support you all have shown me. At times you feel so alone with this. Mrs. Glam is frantic. “What’s wrong? Are you okay?”
I’m sorry I don’t have the strength at the moment to respond to your posts. I was just looking to vent and your replies have absolutely broken me down. (Not in a bad way!)
I hope you all understand how much I appreciate everything every one of you has expressed. I’m just not in an emotionally sound place to respond to the love and understanding I’ve received today.
I love you all.
Sincerely,
Glam
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But do read the comments, many have helpful advice that you could use.
Love ya, see you when you're up for it. 
You are the best, get better and stronger.
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