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maspaha

(514 posts)
Sat Jun 21, 2025, 06:05 PM 18 hrs ago

Hi DU Fam...

I need to cry and I need to vent…

My husband moved out of the house 6 weeks ago…just left a note, not even a “Goodbye” and he’s gone. We had been arguing for quite a while, but we were in marriage counseling. He left days before our 30th wedding anniversary and his 60th birthday. I have spent the past 30 years as a “trad-wife” and gave up a kickass career for “family”.

A HUGE source of tension was me getting a second puppy, yeah, I understand it was really about MUCH more, but, I ended up in the hospital for 9 days shortly after getting the puppy home, then two months later had a knee replacement. He helped minimally…like not even bringing me food, much less feeding the dogs. He needed a snack while I was in transition labor with our daughter, and left to go eat lunch during my initial consult with a medical oncologist when I was diagnosed with breast cancer…I’m a 15 year breast cancer survivor with three artificial joints and another surgery scheduled in September…lots of medical issues.

Fast forward to yesterday…my under-socialized, leash-reactive 150 pound St Bernard puppy went full on Cujo and attacked his trainer. Today the probably-to-be ex stopped by the house to pick up more “stuff” and puppy went Cujo on him and bit him. Two bites in two days. I will be sending puppy to the bridge on July 8, one day after his 14 day bite quarantine.

In the midst of this, I’m trying to clean out 25 years worth of accumulated crap, because ya know, I might need to move.

Anyway, if y’all could just shoot me some prayers, good thoughts/vibes, etc., I ‘d appreciate it.

And please remind me that I am smart, resourceful, and resilient and that others have gone through this, and become much happier on the other side

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Hi DU Fam... (Original Post) maspaha 18 hrs ago OP
Why not place pup in breed rescue? SheltieLover 18 hrs ago #1
I ran a breed specific rescue for 7 years... maspaha 18 hrs ago #4
My post was not an attempt to judge you. SheltieLover 17 hrs ago #6
Thank you SheltieLover... maspaha 15 hrs ago #9
I wasn't aware of your experience & don't know you. SheltieLover 15 hrs ago #11
Some St Bernards can turn violent dangerous. When i was younger CentralMass 18 hrs ago #5
Yikes. Sorry you had such an awful experience SheltieLover 17 hrs ago #7
You will be better off without him. Irish_Dem 18 hrs ago #2
Thanks Irish maspaha 15 hrs ago #10
Yes it is the closing of one chapter, painful, but the beginning of your new life. Irish_Dem 15 hrs ago #12
Wow, hun... that is a lot... FirstLight 18 hrs ago #3
Better to lose the narcissist now and have some time without a mentally Karadeniz 15 hrs ago #8

SheltieLover

(70,356 posts)
1. Why not place pup in breed rescue?
Sat Jun 21, 2025, 06:11 PM
18 hrs ago

Is he getting enough exercise?

Personally,I wouldn't put him down. I'd find a rescue to help him adjust.

maspaha

(514 posts)
4. I ran a breed specific rescue for 7 years...
Sat Jun 21, 2025, 06:20 PM
18 hrs ago

…the reality is they have limited resources and not enough foster homes for normal, well adjusted dogs. Not all dogs can be saved.

Curtiss has medical issues as well as behavior issues. His sister just passed her CGC. Exercise is not an issue.

Curt trusts me and I will not turn him over to an uncertain future. I will be with him.

Please don’t judge me on this one. Support only please.

maspaha

(514 posts)
9. Thank you SheltieLover...
Sat Jun 21, 2025, 08:57 PM
15 hrs ago

I’m really sensitive about Curt right now. I’ve probably had 100 dogs through my house, between rescue waiting for foster, fosters, hospice, boarding for friends, etc. I’ve taken in bite dogs rehab’d them and adopted to a proper home. I’ve also trained a lot of dogs in my life. I think there’s something else going on with Curt and with 2 bites in two days, I can’t risk others being hurt or Curt being hurt. It just sucks.

SheltieLover

(70,356 posts)
11. I wasn't aware of your experience & don't know you.
Sat Jun 21, 2025, 09:07 PM
15 hrs ago

Only meant to offer another option.

CentralMass

(16,181 posts)
5. Some St Bernards can turn violent dangerous. When i was younger
Sat Jun 21, 2025, 06:31 PM
18 hrs ago

I had a very large paper route in town
I used my bike to deliver. Whe had a neighbor right down the street from my parents house with a very large St Bernard. The owner was an elderly man who tried way to hard to convince everyone that the dog was friendly and harmless. I was good with most dogs and not particulary fearful of them . On my paper route I had to be. It covered a wide area and there were lots of dogs. But when the owner wasn't around the dog would get aggressive. If we're were riding our bikes by the house we learned to pedal as fast as we could because he would jump the fence and chase us.The owner could tell I was afraid of him and ask why And when I told him he snapped at me when I attempted to deliver the paper he didn't believe. He got worse as time went on, bit me, I still have the scar 50 years later, and bit a little girl in the neighborhood and that was it. The owner had to put him down. He was too big of an animal to give any more chances to. ST Bernard's are docile until they're not.

Irish_Dem

(71,316 posts)
2. You will be better off without him.
Sat Jun 21, 2025, 06:14 PM
18 hrs ago

I think you will see he did you a favor by leaving.

Your life is going to be much better and much healthier.
You can surround yourself with people who like, love, respect you and treat you much better.

Grieve the loss, the end of a very long difficult chapter in your life.
And then move forward with your new happy life.

You might actually feel better physically as well.
A bad marriage can suck the life and soul out of a person.

maspaha

(514 posts)
10. Thanks Irish
Sat Jun 21, 2025, 09:00 PM
15 hrs ago

I’m looking at the separation process kinda like I looked at chemo…it’s gonna suck, but I can heal.

Irish_Dem

(71,316 posts)
12. Yes it is the closing of one chapter, painful, but the beginning of your new life.
Sat Jun 21, 2025, 09:21 PM
15 hrs ago

Yes you will heal and be fine.

FirstLight

(15,331 posts)
3. Wow, hun... that is a lot...
Sat Jun 21, 2025, 06:15 PM
18 hrs ago

So sorry for your struggles... it's been a long road 😞 you ARE a survivor, and I know you will make it to the other side of all this. But it's ok to hurt right now 🫂

I'm mad at your husband for you, nobody deserves that disregard - especially when in medical emergency or urgency. So i curse him with 1000000 lashes with the karma stick.
I'm really sorry about the puppy. It's not your fault. Poor doggo just couldn't regulate his own behavior. Attacking the trainer sounds really gnarly. I send you love and prayers I'm sure that that breaks your heart. 😕🥺

It's okay to cry in fact I think it helps. If you weren't crying or upset, then something would be wrong with you. Crying and being angry and sad is all part of that process of release and letting go. It sucks I know. I'm still cleaning crap from my ex out of the house 6 months later and trying not to be triggered.

But, on the other side, you will have your Independence and be stronger for it. I hate that that sounds like a platitude but I know you know what I mean. Hang in there sister!

Karadeniz

(24,518 posts)
8. Better to lose the narcissist now and have some time without a mentally
Sat Jun 21, 2025, 08:48 PM
15 hrs ago

disabled husband to juggle. Get a good lawyer. You'll come out ahead when it's over. Sending good thoughts !

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