It is so hard right now.

But at least you had them here to love for awhile 🌺

I can't imagine your pain.

Stay with us one more day please.

Had my episode, got through it. They letting me drive, but won't let me live, where I want to live.

Koz

I hope things start looking up for you very soon!

He was living up in or above Clearwater above Tampa Bay.

but it took me a while with the "Abbreviation Finder" until the light dawned.

Hang in there and reach out to your DU family. There are great people here who care and support you. Even when you feel most alone, you're not. Hugs and healing vibes to you, dear friend.

You don't want to do that, do you?

Is the kitty still aroumd? She could be a great comfort while making few demands on you when you're the most tired.

We still love you even if Florida doesn't.

I'm tired, have to walk with a walker, can't sleep well.. I'm just tired..
Thanks for the reply



Koz

I'm sorryy for your losses, and sometimes these bad days are just overwhelming. My coping mechanism . . . get through an hour, theen shoot for two . . .. then three. And project, "maybe this time tomorrow will be better." I figure there has got to be a reason for my almost-four-years on the planet.

Maybe voice recognition, gone bad.. but thanks

Koz

almost eighty years on the planet

My OP stated , leave, which became live.
Leave meant, I won't fight anymore when.my health fails me, I'll just let go, and leave.

Koz

It is natural for people to want to encourage others to cheer up, tomorrow could be better. I've spent much of my life loving older people and I have known many people who welcomed the end of this experience. Pain, mobility, nobody left that you know and love. You're not saying you want to kill yourself, but, when it comes to you, from today's perspective, it may be a welcome relief. Am I in the ballpark?

The caregiver, the provider, etc
I'm just tired, and now my body is failing.
I just don't have any fight left

I'm still in aftercare from my stroke. Not sure what happens after this.
I keep hearing phrases of " you don't need to live alone"

When you are going through hell - keep going!!!

And sometimes, you need to stop, and fight.
I'm tired of fighting. And , too tired to walk.

Koz

You worked so hard for your wife and L’il Bit. Care can wreck you, even when all the while you are grateful for the privilege of the work and sharing the love. I know.

You are valued here. Please at least keep talking to us as you can.

Thanks for sharing your story with us, you can see from this thread that we hurt for you. May your walk with us be longer.