During those 10 years, we did about as much introspection as one could. One eve. my brother and a friend said, come on, let's smoke this joint before we go to the movie. The movie was American Beauty, all about a guy trying pot and other things) We laughed so hard that we realized it had been a very long time since we were that relaxed and happy. We went back to smoking it and drinking to be honest. But during those 10 years we learned why we were struggling our whole life. I got on anti depressants because I really needed them. Depression and anxiety have a long history in my family. I could never have gotten to that point if I hadn't quit for that time. But, now I am not sad or depressed, I only partake after the work day is done, We are retired and quite happy. So, what will happen for you? Who knows? Have you figured out what you were running from when you had problems from drinking too much? How hard was it for you to get sober and could you do it again if your experiment fails? AA would kill me for this advice, but, even when I went to AA I couldn't stand saying, Hi, I'm so and so and I'm an alcoholic. So I would I said Hi, I'm so and so and I'm recovering. It is a complicated question that only you can answer. Good luck!
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