I have anxiety, depression and PSTD but I still mask up! [View all]

I took anti-depressives for awhile, but decided to stop taking them. I have a prescription for anti-anxiety that I got when I had to have eye treatments, but I don't take them unless I am heading for the eye doctor.

I was pretty low when I was a teen, and I remain one of those people who look forward to passing on. My husband died in 2017, and his loss added to my negative outlook. My doctor knows my state of mind, and she knows I am safe living without meds, but I know I could ask and get something if I wanted it.

However, I find reasons to stay here. Most of the reasons are not for my benefit. My kids want me here and they miss their dad. I am the only surviving grandparent to my grandkids, and thaty aren't even into their teen years. I made a short-term goal of voting this year. I made a long-term goal to watch the grandkids graduate from high school.

But I am writing today about the death by Covid-19 attitude so many people are taking. If they don't want to live, fine. But by not wearing masks, they are endangering all of the people they come in contact with. That is like murder/suicide and I don't understand how so many people can be so cruel. It isn't just murder/suicide of their own family and friends, it is society wide. They don't seem to care if they infect Granny or the clerk at the 7/11. I wish the government really could put something in the water.

I feel like the anti-maskers must hate living and I guess I can hold myself up to their bad example and see that I'm holding my own. I hope others can keep going in their own lives.