Mental Health Support

As I have said before, I do not presume to dare to say that I am blameless in being where I am right now. But, I am not solely to blame either. And, it has been my observation that the ones who ruined my life or career just went on with their lives, being successful (which is a subjective term, I know), raising families, etc. I always ended up in the gutter or a homeless camp. Without any perception of justice or equality in my life, how can I continue to live when it is all a lie? I just don't get it. I was told that evil will fall and justice will prevail. The past five decades have proven to me that this is not only false, but nothing more than propaganda. How can I live in a place that is telling me that this desire for justice and equality, these things that were drilled into me as a child which said that the U.S. believes and stands by them, is just a delusional fantasy? I don't want to exist in a place that acts in this manner. Yet, here we are...