I am having a really bad day [View all]

First of all I decided I can't go without therapy, but I no longer feel comfortable telling the people at the mental health clinic I have been going to that. I feel like they made it clear they think I should move on. I have been trying to find a new clinic but most have waiting lists and I also don't want to mess up getting my medications in the meantime.

I was already upset about that, made a dumb suggestion that a lot of people jumped on me here for. Then my sister's jerk friend drives his stupid boat into the garage wall, and it goes through to the basement wall. They're not coming until tomorrow to fix it. I hope nothing goes wrong in the meantime because of it.

I really don't want him storing it here but I can't say anything because she owns the house and helps me pay the bills, because I am on disability, and it's not enough to cover everything. We coinherited it from my parents, but I signed my part over because I didn't want to risk both of us losing the house in case I have a serious enough breakdown that requires lengthy hospitalization. But I am seriously upset, pissed and scared, and feeling like on one hand I am being ungrateful but on the other hand like I am being dismissed like my feelings don't count, and now I don't even have a therapist to vent to.