Mental Health Support

changed. I haven't talked to my family since October since my sister and mother's behavior was terrible towards my dad and me at the funeral I sent a card to them--no money . Christmas Day I received a phone call from my sister. I didn't answer. I then got a message saying in a snotty tone. "we don't want to talk to you, we only wanted to wish you a Merry christmas. Now my cousin is saying I am wrong to do that to my family. She gave me life and she is my mother and deserves respect. I called the Doctor's office for two days and got no return call to set up an appointment. I sat looking at my anti-depressents, anti-anxiety and 2 sleeping pills. I called the suicide hotline and was afraid to talk as they might send someone out here to take me to the hospital. I wanted to end it . Even with taking lunesta and Trazodone, i can't sleep. I get my spinal and cervical CAT this week. My mother and sister knew and it didn't bother them to have me drive all summer and sit for a 6 and a 12 hr. procedure. and a multiples visits to her and to the doctors. Having people talk about the children they will miss and the joy they feel being posted makes me feel alone and tired. I feel very tired , Thank you for listening. Love, deb.