Mental Health Support

It is not exactly being exhausted. It is the pain and the inability to even bend over without toppling into things and the fact that when I reach into the oven I can feel things stretching and starting to fray and it is cutting my hand multiple times on edges and stuff that normally I would be able to avoid. This is horrible.

I wish it was all about physical deterioration due to age. It is more than that. This is my body literally failing at a rate that seems much more rapid than a normal 'bell curve' type of situation. I am failing fast these days and this failure is too expensive to address. (Which is another story for another time.)

Should I increasingly suffer until the end or avoid all that with a bit of dignity? This question has been in the front of my mind for years now.