The perfect bad ending to the perfect bad day. [View all]

Went to a once a month support group meeting at the hospital where I "vacationed" in September. My nurse/case manager was there, it was great to see her.

But there was another nurse there I hadn't seen before. As people in the group spoke, when it was my turn I told about my weight loss, joining the gym, working with the personal trainer and the weight loss group, and about coming to work out on my own. I am thrilled I am doing this for myself. And I see a ton of "regulars" who are there all of the time when I'm there working out,

This nurse asked me if it wasn't hypomania? Was I sure it wasn't?

What the fuck? Are all of these people bipolar too? Are they all in manic or hypomanic states? This club is enormous, there are hundreds of members there at any time, it's even busy very early in the morning.

Are they all mentally ill, or are they just people who value their health and choose to live an active lifestyle?

Why does it have to be a sign of mental illness for me to do exactly the same thing hundreds of other people are doing?

This is one big reason I chose NOT to tell anyone about the ml ' entire crisis -- I don't want everything I do questioned "is it a symptom of his mental illness?"

Why can't it just be me being me?

I'm three months into this thing, and I'm already damned sick of it. I just want my life back, the way it was, before I was "defective" in the eyes of the world that knows.