Having a bad "down day," I guess it's to be expected [View all]

Last edited Fri Jan 3, 2025, 06:44 PM - Edit history (1)

They can't all be up days, right?

I woke up with my tolerance level for my son and his girlfriend and their situation kind of up to my eyebrows. I mean I didn't want them being homeless and living the way they were so I invited them here so that they could get on their feet, it's just taking longer than we all expected. And his girlfriend is a horrible housekeeper. Which makes it very rough for me when she does not clean up after herself in my kitchen after making the family dinner. So I woke up this morning to what was left of chili cheese dogs in my kitchen and I couldn't even get a cup of coffee without wanting to barf. I will have to talk to them and have a house meeting with them later.

And then I had physical therapy at noon. This is the physical therapy that was supposed to accompany my back injections that I received at the beginning of October. But because of all the shit that went down with River, obviously all of my doctor's appointments and physical therapy got pushed. So not only did I have to go and recount all the trauma to my physical therapist, but I also have to admit the fact that she fucked my back up again and possibly even worse than it was before. I'm really pissed. Normally those injections will help me with the pain for up to 9 months. And now I'm back to square one all over again and I can't do shit. I can't even stand up in the kitchen to cook dinner for more than 15 minutes at a time. So all the range of motion tests and everything just show them pile of nothing right now as far as my body goes it's just so frustrating.
So now after all the poking and prodding I feel worse and I'm also traumatized and sad and crying. So I just came home and put myself back to bed and took a couple gabapentins for the nerve pain. I hope I wake up on the right side of the bed because right now today sucks.


I mean I know we can't have all beautiful perfect flowers and sunshine all the time, but nobody likes feeling like this. And I've been making such good progress that it really feels like I'm backsliding even though I know it's not the reality.