Mental Health Support

I agree with Tobin see your Dr and see what they can do. I'd also highly recommend seeing a counsellor or psychologist. These are ultimately complex long standing issues that usually have deep roots and take years to fully come to terms with.

As to your family I'm sorry to hear that. That can indeed make things so much harder. But let me give my own 2 cents of the mater. Family usually can only be so helpful in these matters even at the best of times. The reason is ironically they are too close to the issue and have their own emotional vested interests. They can't step back from the issue even if they wanted to and give you the kind of support you may truly need. My own family is very supportive, kind, and well meaning. So you would think that in my case things would be easier. Not necessarily. In my case, as in many, the family is too closely tied up with my emotional issues. As supportive and loving as they are they are also unwittingly a large source of my problems. I don't know if this is true for you, it may not be the case at all, but I think the idea that family is "too close to the issue to help" rings true for many of us here.

Sorry I can't offer anything specific. I've been going through so much horrible shit myself these past few months I'm not in a good place myself.

The community is always here for you though!