Mental Health Support

and i've met him and i want him back. but the years of whatever is starting to wear on me and i'm wondering whether i'm working for anything that's attainable.

there is the pride side of me that won't let me walk away from things. there's that human side of me that doesn't want to give up on someone i love. i have asked myself over and over why i keep trying and there are times that none of the answers sit right, but i still have a vested interest in this.

i really did get freudian and marry my whole damn family when i married him, there is a boatload of shit that i decided needed to be worked out all in one go. but i have found strength i never knew i had, i have learned a lot about myself and i have learned a lot about how to deal with other people. as bad as things have gotten, the times have been equally as good.

but we are getting toward the end of the game. i will see this particular part through to the end, and, if things play out the way i think they will, he either addresses the issue or i really have to be done.

whatever happens, though, i have learned lessons that needed learned.