Mental Health Support

i have never seen such emotion from him as i did the day we said goodbye and he actually howled in the car as we drove to the vet. he is very much an introvert and a hermit who also has great disdain for any sort of emotion, so i know he's having a really hard time with this.

a big struggle in my heart and mind right now is dealing with the grief alone because of how he's reacting to it. i give him all the space he needs, but he has not been giving me the comfort that i need because he's pulled into himself. we work opposite schedules, so i know the hardest time for both of us is when we're home alone without her for company and conversation.

oh, let's also not forget the horrible guilt i have right now because it appears our remaining cat isn't enough.

this is my first real grief and it is far more complex than i ever imagined.