A manic mood right now [View all]

I still haven't taken my meds.

I just ran outside and tried to climb a tree to no avail. Almost hurt myself. Now I'm inside again feeling erratic. Just dropped to the floor and did 5 push ups. COUNT EM, 5 PUSH UPS.

Thought it would be productive to write out my thoughts right now but they're too fast to write them all so I'll write the process.

I have urges telling me to do things (like run outside and climb a tree) and then an urge that says, "you won't do that, that's weird. It's 9pm" and the other urge is constantly, "OH YEAH? I'll do whatever I want!" and thus I run outside to climb a tree or drop to the floor to do push ups out of nowhere.

I'm going to the kitchen now, the water is boiling.