Advice on job seeking, life or anything really. [View all]

Hey folks. I hope everyone is doing well.

So... I lost my job after being gainfully employed for 11 years or so. My employer retired on a whim essentially. If I were a better worker I suppose this could have been avoided, but he had a lot of stresses going on in his life which contributed to this situation going on too. Anyway, now I'm left without much money in the bank as I was essentially living paycheck-to-paycheck and really at a loss for how to go about getting another job that pays decently.

I really hated my old job... so... getting back into that field at least long term is probably a no go. I have issues with depression, anxiety, and perhaps some complex-ptsd/borderline personality stuff going in... which at times just makes life really difficult. I'm always down on myself. Sometimes I just stuff my emotions until they come bad way... Then there's the whole ulcerative colitis thing and marijuana usage during non-work hours. The pot helps with the ulcerative colitis substantially.

So many worthwhile jobs drug test and don't listen to reason when it comes to test results. They aren't looking for active impairment... just any use within the past month or whatever (which is fucking stupid but whatever. Society is often arbitrary and ridiculous). On the other side, the ulcerative colitis usually means being in pain, or having to go to the bathroom like "RIGHT NOW". I'm not sure how many jobs are going to be flexible enough to handle impromptu bathroom breaks on a whim.

Anyway... Anyone have any advice? Thank you in advance.