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In reply to the discussion: I deserve to die [View all]

get the red out

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2. Thank you
Wed Sep 13, 2017, 08:45 AM
Sep 2017

I can't deal right now, I have upset someone I didn't want to have a bad opinion of me. This is kind of a last straw right now. I wish I had killed myself when I was young and not had to live through so damn much and gotten kicked down at every turn, made a fool of myself at every turn. People like me ought to be found as children and put down for their own good like a puppy with a horrible genetic disease. If they had put me down as a defective kid, I wouldn't have had to suffer or make others around me suffer. I am the kind of thing no one wants in the room with them. I am the kind of thing my parents shouldn't have had to deal with, I am a THING that my poor husband and dogs shouldn't be forced to put up with. The kind of THING that other kids knew was "off" instinctively, and tried their best to make go away and kill itself off in order to protect the social order. A THING that no college should have admitted on their campus, whose graduation makes the University of Kentucky really look stupid for letting it in to begin with. I am a THING that someone should come into my office and shoot right now for the betterment of the world. I am a creature who should die and have lines of people spitting on its grave day and night for weeks in efforts to achieve some justice in humiliating it in death.

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I deserve to die [View all] get the red out Sep 2017 OP
Oh gosh... looks like I'm the only one here right now. femmocrat Sep 2017 #1
Thank you get the red out Sep 2017 #2
Please get hold of a doctor today! femmocrat Sep 2017 #10
Thank you get the red out Sep 2017 #16
You should contact your provider immediately and express your feelings. tymorial Sep 2017 #3
You deserve to be healthy, and happy with who you are. Lilyhoney Sep 2017 #4
Remember. Your dogs need and love you and he/she doesn't want anything to happen to you. democratisphere Sep 2017 #5
You don't deserve to die. liberalmuse Sep 2017 #6
yes your dogs need you....they depend on you... samnsara Sep 2017 #7
No you don't Lotusflower70 Sep 2017 #8
You don't deserve to die TubbersUK Sep 2017 #9
Thank you so much get the red out Sep 2017 #11
Stay around, at least for your dogs' sake. BigmanPigman Sep 2017 #12
I am so sorry get the red out Sep 2017 #19
Please get help now Freddie Sep 2017 #13
I got an apt to see my Dr tomorrow get the red out Sep 2017 #15
Get some help. shenmue Sep 2017 #14
Home and feel safe now get the red out Sep 2017 #17
The wrong medication can crash you. The right medication is a god send and can give you a new applegrove Sep 2017 #24
Amen to this cyclonefence Sep 2017 #29
Totally agree OceanChick Sep 2017 #33
Thanks for the encouraging update that you feel safe. You will get over this. John1956PA Sep 2017 #18
Thanks so much for updating us TubbersUK Sep 2017 #20
how are you doing this afternoon? irisblue Sep 2017 #21
Managed to nap get the red out Sep 2017 #22
If you haven't responded to a medication after six weeks marylandblue Sep 2017 #28
Effexor made me a Zombie OceanChick Sep 2017 #34
Big time Zombie get the red out Sep 2017 #35
you mentioned your Border Collies up thread irisblue Sep 2017 #23
Perhaps tomorrow get the red out Sep 2017 #31
Hello. hunter Sep 2017 #25
I appreciate your insight get the red out Sep 2017 #32
You deserve TO LIVE! You are valuable. You are not the hate spewing evil that was pointed at you. onecaliberal Sep 2017 #26
Some of the worlds most creative people were chronically depressed. Throck Sep 2017 #27
You deserve to live, and you deserve to Ilsa Sep 2017 #30
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