African American

to go crazy. The if I don't say something who will is naturally a part of it, too, and is all-consuming always. Honestly, I think it's meant to drive us and allies up the wall because it's deep psychological warfare as well, beside all the normal problems, tragedies and joys of life.

This may sound crazy. I think part of Nina Simone's psychological breakdown was because of being in the fight all the time and not getting help sooner because we're expected to be strong 24-7. You know the medical world think we don't feel pain as intensely as others...lol! I think it's why Lorraine Hansberry died so young. As in this article about the documentary, "What Happened, Miss Simone?," What is it to walk in the shoes of Nina Simone, a dark-skinned Black American girl born in the South? What is it to experience the rejections, the hurts and still keep it together enough to execute at a superior level? That is enough to drive anyone mad. And this good film was about her genius on many layers but as if nothing more affected her but being a mad genius. https://shadowandact.com/the-irresponsibility-of-what-happened-miss-simone/

So I keep Simone and Hansberry and Eric Garner's daughter, Erica, and Freddie Gray's mother in mind to keep calm while being a soldier. The toll is too much and I just don't believe that our lot is not to experience joy, self-love and self-care, as well.