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I sorta kinda understand. My father's maternal side came from the Azore(s) Islands. They were ignorant (wrt to education). To this day, no one in my family can actually spell our family name, let alone trace it backward to the islands. The original name was changed at Ellis Island, by some guy who thought "it sorta sounds like this" and changed our family name to something more 'Anglo'.
What "they" would have thought about anything, you say? You are correct. We can only guess.
My family can only speak phonetically our last name, but cannot spell it.
Lost is who we ARE, seeking a connection, from whence we came. I have one thing, and one thing only, where my great grandma bequeathed to our family... a shall she wore on the 'boat'. Mom still has it, even though it belongs to my father's family. I Guess it's a lady thing. (Mom's side is from Italy. They, too...sadly, were illiterate.)
Unless we know our direct ancestors, Amen.... I did meet my great grand-mother, but I was 2yrs old. She was 91. I think that was the first long-term memory I had formulated. Talk about a child development study....
I enjoyed your writing. It's important to write what YOU think is important.
Well done, Cali. You have spurned a cascade of emotions, feelings, ideas, and well... a lost history. Be it yours, mine, or ours.
Well done!