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(This is a long post that I recently put on Facebook. I thought it might be of interest to this group.) (It really is long.) (But it's about a very long book, so there's some kind of synchrony there.)

Forty or more years ago, I tried to write a short autobiographical novel stemming from what was then a fairly recent episode in my life. I didn't get far with the book, partly because I didn't have the hang of writing mainstream fiction and partly because writing about something that was still raw turned out to be far more emotionally difficult than I had expected. (I had thought that writing the story would be therapeutic. It wasn't.) It also didn't feel like a novel--more like a fictionalized diary entry.

I put it aside and went back to genre fiction. But I kept coming back to that novel, and also fiddling with some other autobiographical fiction. At some point, I merged all the autobiographical stuff together, and the result was something very novel like but also very incomplete and uneven -- different parts that didn't go together well. Dropped it again. Came back to it later. Rinse and repeat.

With each cycle, it got bigger and better but still very emotionally stressful to work on. Also with each cycle, the plot extended more into the past and the future, and the book spread sideways in the sense of adding more secondary characters. The parts that, at the start, had been set in the near future were now set in the recent past. Oops. The near future I had envisioned didn't happen, requiring plot revisions. On and on it went.

I kept putting the novel, now called CHAINS, aside in favor of plot-driven novels I could actually finish in a reasonable amount of time. But I always felt guilty, and increasingly silly and annoyed with myself. CHAINS kept poking at me.

When I started CHAINS, I was in early middle age or late whatever comes right before middle age. Now I'm into old age, and I feel really silly that I haven't finished the book. Each year, I've told myself that I'd have it done by my birthday, which is in October, or at least by the end of the year. Each year, I failed to do that.

On the bright side, CHAINS has become not only much bigger than I originally intended but also much more serious, deeper, and layered than it was at the start. Or so it seems to me, anyway.

Well, my birthday is less than a week away, and CHAINS most definitely won't be done by then. It probably won't be done by the end of this year, either, but after working at the book more steadily this year than I have in years, I'm finally hopeful that it will at least be a real first draft by the end of the year. It has reached the point that it reads like a novel, albeit with gaps and inconsistencies, instead of like of a collection of stuff that doesn't fit together.

That was anticlimactic, wasn't it? Perhaps I shouldn't have posted anything until I had a finalish first draft. But I didn't want to wait.
At this point, the ms. is over 230,000 words. It could end up around 250-260,000 words. That's more than twice as long as anything I've written before. It will quite literally be my magnum opus.