Perfect love and perfect trust. [View all]

Does anyone really have that?

Where to start. Last night during the long night while I was reflecting, it occurred to me that there really isn't anyone I have that with. I did for a while with some covenmates, but I threw it away because of their silliness. I wanted something deeper spiritually.

Haven't found it yet, but I certainly miss what I did have.

Got a letter from my primary care physician that he is moving away. I have a hard time telling people what is going on. I always say "fine." I'm sort of an emotional mess. I saw a counselor for a while, but I wasn't even honest with her, so that was a waste of time and money. Anyway, this PCP is someone I trust and who has my number, so to speak. So now I need to find someone new and maybe try a different medication regimen. I was taking Wellbutrin, but not regularly because of not giving a damn.

Hmm. Is there a question here. Yes. I guess I'm wondering if anyone has dealt with this sort of issue. I have the feeling that as a Pagan (of course I had the same feeling during my short-lived stint as a Christian) I should be able to spiritually be at peace with whatever troubles I am having. I'm supposed to be a healer, dammit, and I can't even keep my own self intact.

Any suggestions, practical or "woo" in nature?