Bereavement

I'm still in the 100' wave phase. Dealing with disabilities from a stroke at the same time adds another layer of misery.

The only thing that makes the stroke bear able is the fact my dad drove to my house once or twice a week for a year (a 50 mile round trip and he was 88)- up until his last two weeks of his life. I got to spend some real quality time with him but it made the pain even more real when he died. I'd rather have the pain and the memories we made in that year.

I miss my dad horribly.

His birthday is in 10 days and I'm bracing for it.