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FedUpWithIt All

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8. That is understandable.

Sat Mar 23, 2013, 11:07 AM

Mar 2013

I used to look at my girls and imagine how i, as a protective mother, would feel if they were experiencing the events i experienced at their ages. I would feel furious and protective.

If i could feel those things for my children, isn't it also reasonable and acceptable that i should feel those things for the little girl that i was? The little girl who did not have a furious and protective mother, but she should have had. I am furious and protective on HER behalf. And it is understandable and reasonable to feel that way. It is my job to protect her now, in any way possible. The little girl, that i was, deserves that...always has.

Be gentle with yourself.

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My own version. (a warning that there may be triggers here) [View all] FedUpWithIt All Mar 2013 OP

I am truly sorry you experienced all of this. In_The_Wind Mar 2013 #1

Thank you, sincerely. I am also sorry for the things you've endured. FedUpWithIt All Mar 2013 #4

My only wish is that we find peace. In_The_Wind Mar 2013 #5

That is understandable. FedUpWithIt All Mar 2013 #8

I really am trying. I want to unpack all of this baggage, discard it, go on. In_The_Wind Mar 2013 #10

"First and foremost ... do no harm to myself." FedUpWithIt All Mar 2013 #12

Indeed! I love me the most. In_The_Wind Mar 2013 #13

Bravo! Sekhmets Daughter Mar 2013 #16

That is the only thing that is acceptable. In_The_Wind Mar 2013 #17

A few thoughts. Behind the Aegis Mar 2013 #2

I think it is part of the nature of the beast that directly leads to the self doubt and confusion. FedUpWithIt All Mar 2013 #6

You don't need to apologize for Ilsa Mar 2013 #3

Thank you Ilsa. FedUpWithIt All Mar 2013 #7

Your story is Ilsa Mar 2013 #18

I wish the same for you FedUpWithIt All Mar 2013 #23

I too had a difficult time identifying my childhood experiences Voice for Peace Mar 2013 #9

This brought tears to my eyes. FedUpWithIt All Mar 2013 #11

I understand your reluctance to label what happened... Kalidurga Mar 2013 #14

I'm really sorry that you and your siblings weren't protected. FedUpWithIt All Mar 2013 #20

I am so sorry. Ms. Toad Mar 2013 #15

I am beginning to see the real value of sharing. FedUpWithIt All Mar 2013 #21

Hi Fedupwithitall! Sissyk Mar 2013 #19

Thank you Sissyk FedUpWithIt All Mar 2013 #22